Sunday, Dec. 21, 2003 - 10:40 a.m.
its been three days .. im not sure what i'v been doing in them three days .. other than being ill :-(
I will start from where i remember, sorry if i go over stuff i'v already said. So, the Dr put me on antibiotis, all 400mg of them *roll eyes* .. then i started being sick, and the emergancy Dr had to come out again and give me a sickness injection .. he agreed to leave me at home on the grounds i would go straight to hospital if i got any worse. The next day i think i started to pick up, the pain was just when i was passing urine and the next kinda ten mins after .. rather than really quite nasty all the time. The next day though, the pain got worse again and i called my GP who said my text had come back as possitive, but i had to wait before i could talk to the Dr about it.
In the mean while i talked to the hospital again, Sarah Goy is my contonance nurse at Cambridge .. she said she would see me this week, only i never heard anything. She was SO fucking rude though! I oculd hear her standing next to the receptionist, but she refused to talk to me .. this dozy fucking receptionist was asking me what the matter was .. so i had to explain my fucking medical history to some dozy bitch who had no idea what i was talking about .. then said said 'hold on .. sarah ..' and i head some one say to her 'cover that phone up!' .. like they were talking about me and i wasnt to hear it :@ i was nearly in tears by the time some one else took the phone.
So this other woman comes on the phone and tells me she is another nurse specialist and can she help me? So i explained everything all over again and she said 'how much do you retain?' when i told her 150ml .. she said 'oh, well thats not much' !!!! It might not be much to you missy, but i am physically sick if my bladder gets fuller than 350ml and thats half way there! JEEEEEESUS!! :-@:-@:-@
She also said stupid things like 'well, im not sure what you what us to do' .. and 'why do you actually need to see some onw' .. by the end of the convasation she was quite keen to get me in .. i just dont understand what changed!? I hate it when you have to fight to do things.
So any way, that nurse told me i needed to get some more antibiotics so im on another 1000mg and the 400mg still from the other ones. I'v felt a lil improvment as far as pain peeing going .. but i cant stop being sick!!!! ARGH!!!
I just cant seem to keep anything down, and when i do, i feel so fucking sick i can hardly move. It just makes me want to put my finger down my throut and get it all out. It just takes over my body, this nausia .. i cant move for fear of throwing up .. and everytime i do move, i retch and nothing comes out .. :'-( Im actually getting quite tierd and i would like a rest from infections and being sick.
I have been looking back over this year, and my ME stuff has actually been FINE! I had a dipp a few months ago, but i didnt last too long. If i had been infection free this year, i would have been so well. Im just sick of it .. im always on antibiotics, i have no immune system. The nurse at the hosptial seemed to think that this sickness was actually something i picked up during my ten mins at the Dr's :-@ Im sorry to mean, im just really really sick and tierd of feeling sick and tierd :"-(
So i have the hosptial tomorrow, seeing Sarah. I havent been able to cath for over a week now so she is going to scan me and so on.
My mum is coming over today, she has been here all week end but i'v not really been well enough to see her. She is going home today, but she is popping in before she leaves to get her christmas prezzy :-)
I have to be carful what i write here about this, i dont think my sisters have a link to my diary .. even if they did im sure they wouldnt read it .. but i dont want them to find this out through my diary!!
My mum's GP found a lump on her thiroid and its pressing on her wind pipe. If you read regually, you will know that my mum is always ill with loosing her voice and things .. well apparently thats the cause. she is going to see a speical Dr as an emergancy in the next few weeks, her GP is vvery worried about it .. specially as she stops breathing at night and has to sleep on 4 pillows at night :-(
Any way .. christmas soon .. joy .. im a bit calmer about it all now, im going to Frans for the morning, then to my dads for lunch. I will head back to Frans in the afternoon/evening though. I already have quite a few prezzys .. i have issues with prezzys so christmas is very odd to me! lol .. but thank you to every one who sent me things :-) .. im sorry to the people i couldnt get a prezzy for .. and sorry to the people i did .. they are really tiny!!
Any way, enough of this .. i need a rest. Bye Bye people x x x x x
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