2003-03-14 - 10:40 a.m.
I planned this entry last night, but it wont go to plan...
I have a few friends at the moment who have SO much going on in there
heeeds, but wont talk about it.
Its actually REALLY frustrating :'-(
I know its hard to explain feelings and problems to people some times, but i
dont think you realize how hard that is for your friends. I dont talk about
everything will all my friends, but i have a few select trusted people who i
can tell most things.
It is SO hard sitting back and watching your friends go though hell when you
have no fucking idea whats going on, put your self in your friends shoes,
how would you feel? Its actually quite hurtfull that that person feels they
cant trust you enough.
The thing that bugs me more than anything, is that you (the person not
talking) are CLEARLY missrable! Whats the fuckin point? YOu have good trust
worthy friends around you who WANT to help yet you just dont let them near
you.
As far as im conserned you have 2 ways of going about it,
Method 1, choose a trusted friend who you know wont judge or go round
telling people. slowly tell them what the problem is. Can be over a number
of days, text's, phone calls .. just get it out.
You then just let other friends know that your talking to some one about it
and reasure them they dont need to worry so much.
You WILL start to feel better if you do that, no matter HOW much pain you go
though to get there, it will be worth it in the end.
Method 2, GET FUCKING PROFETIONAL HELP!
Method 3, carry on the way your going. be fucking missrable & loose all the
friends who care about you. worry about everything constantly, stress about
what people think, let you friends worry half to fucking death & your family
think your suffering with sever mental health problems.
Carry on hurting your self and every one around you.
I KNOW ITS HARD, I HAVE BEEN THERE MY SELF!! It took counciling for me to
open up but now i use my friends as sounding boards because i know they will
always be there for me.
Im sorry, this isnt aimed at ANY ONE .. please dont take it personally
(unless you think im right and are diling your best friends number to tell
all now)
I just get really frustrated and angry when i see people hurting them
selves.
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