2003-03-09 - 3:26 p.m.
Bye Bye mummy
Afternoon folkes! How are we all on this lovely day? I swear this is summer! Its absolutly lovely here! The sun is really hot and even though there is a bit of a wind, its really lovely. I was so inspiered by the sun i even went for a wee walk :-D I love that tingley feeling you get on your skin when its warm out side :-)
I went out for a meal last night with Alison, sadly i didnt keep it down, nore did i manage the whole evening. Mum said the Dr told me i had a 48 hour bug and if i dont keep food down soon im to go back to the Dr, but im not so sure. I will leave it another week .. i have had this before when i first got ill, 2 weeks of not being able to keep any thing down. I have had a slice of pizza today, only brought up a bit of it though & now im sucking on some toffie from my basket :-D .. nearly gave my self a fucking brain menerage trying to brake it mind!! And now i cant talk cos my mouth is stuck together ;-)
My friend X has a new diary lay out, and its amazing!! I sugest you have a loooook! Its really inspiered :-D Im really determained to sit down and have a go with dream weaver .. i have a fiar idea what to do, im just not so sure about the nitty gritty bigs & images. If any one has any advice do let me know!!
My mum went home today :-( I feel really guilty i havent seen more of her, but its kinda been hard. I mean, she has been seeing friends, i have been seeing the bottom of my bucket & lots of doctors .. and when we do talk,, its kinda aukuard like we dont know what to say to one another? Im sure it will get better as time goes on though :-)
Ok .. lots of people have been asking about the hopsitla so here is a breif up date!
Wednesday's hospital app. was Dr Nayar the phyc: I was asked to see her after i saw the specilist in london (ME specialist) The bloke in London (Danny) said that i didnt have ME & that what i had was somataform disorder, he said he couldnt help me and that i should see some one localy. So i did .. only she seemed to think it was obvious i didnt have any mental health problems and didnt see what all the fuss was about. She hasnt given me a follow up & i wont know for a wee while but i dont think there will be one. This is good news because although the Nuro lot have always been very good to me, they kinda dump you on phyc when they dont have a clue whats going on. Now dont get me wrong, i think its important to get your mental health checked out specially if they dont know whats wrong with you. But its not fair for people to be labled with a condition they clearly dont have. Any way, i will let you know if there are any follow up.
Fridays app. was plastic surgery, they agreed that i needed the op but they wont do it on the NHS. The Dr who i saw said that he will write to the local health authority and ask them if they will make an exception for me, considering my age and problems. But im really not holding up any hopes :-(
Im really worried about Nikki, she is still really ill and has no care what so ever .. im going to get the train up there tomorrow and stay for a while. Im not sure how long i will be able to stay yet but she needs some one there & it might as well be me!
Im really sleepy today, but i have been on the phone lots :-) Not a bad thing i would like to add!!
Ok, im off to look at train times .. i will up date when i can.
Bye Bye xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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