2003-01-12 - 1:51 a.m.
I know im a bitch .. dont worry
I have this amazing knack for letting people down, pissing them of or just upsetting them .. i dont know how i manage it .. im special. Either that or i really am porderline personality !!
Spent most of the day with my mum .. she came down for a hospital appointment & came to see me. I had a really nasty head ache though so i just moaned at her.
We talked about moving to Manc .. i am deff going now. She has found a deaf center there that does counciling in sign (BSL, SSE & Lip speak) ... (thats what i have been working towards at college) They also have a great gay secne, cheep housing (compeared to Cambridge) & FRIENDS!! Its amazing how lonely i get here .. I know i have Fran, but she is all i have .. apart from people on the phone. I want a greater friends span .. i need it.
Mum said she would help me buy a place. Not for a year (cos i am paying my wheel chair off for a year) but mum & dad give me �100 a month each ... with there money & my �200 a month i could afford a morgage :-) My own place!! YAY!! In other good news .. i can go on the Manchester housing list too!!!!! WAHAYYYY!! Im getting excited about going now :-D :-D .. tons to do though eh!!
Talked to Gaz tonight, i love him so much .. if i were 'normal' i could fall for him, seriously!! I cant weight to live close to him though!! *GETS EXCITED!!* He is only 20 mins on the train .. i could see him every week if we were both up to it!! Either that or i could have him move in as my personal man slave ;-)
My bathroom flooded today .. bastards!!
I have to go to bed, im falling over again. Scared of all this not being able to sit up bollox ... ugh, life sux somethines eh!!
having said that ....
Becky says:
i'm so sorry your so ill at your age too
There not being homophobic .. every one hates you says:
dont be sorry!! im not .. if i had never been ill how would i have met the amazing people i have? I would be lost with out the knolage, inspration & eye opening experances i have gained over the last few years
Night night ... all my special people xx
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