2002-01-14 - 9:47 p.m.
Seem to be really blue at the moment. Im trying to talk my self in to believing its just after christmas blues but its been a few days and if anythig im going further down that up. To be honest i dont know whats up. I dont feel depressed really, i have been there befroe and this is diffrent. DOnt know why just is. I dont want to tell the Dr though cos he iwll just blame my ME on that, and i can do with out that at the moment.
I expect i will get out of in a few days though.
Mum is finding things hard at the moment, she burst in to tears at work the other day. And although i would find her job hard, she can not cry infrount of pashents. Thats very unprofetional.
She has started having councling, i just hope she has got there in time. I think she is haveing a bit of a nervious break down to be honest. One min she is fine and the next she is screaming and crying. I dont know who to help though, its very selfish i know, i should be there for her, but i just can find the energy for anything.
I think i mght be getting iller again, i dont even have the energy to sit up on the computer today.
Christian popped over this morning so that was nice, he made me tea and gave me a hug, so that was me ocupied for a bit. This evening i just sat with mum and watched some telly. Dont know what im doing tomorrow, i need to make some appointments for the carers people, but i dont know if im safe to drive there.
Oh well, im off to bed, i managed to sleep from 10:30 till 1:30 this after noon, and i hoping for the same tonight, so with me luck!
Nighty night, Jo xx
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