2003-01-24 - 12:09 p.m.
Feel rough
I am really really up set, i cant go to Gem's. I really am gutted, i was desp to see her & get away for the night. And now im stuck at my fucking fathers instead .. know where i would rather be.
I cant go cos im really not well, and i forgot that i would have to get from one side of London to the other, i cant use the tube (cos of my wheel chair) and so i would have to get a taxi .. resulting in a bank loan >:-( Im hoping that Gem's college will let me stay there in a week or so .. then i can drive down and dont have to worry about everything. I guess it was silly to think i would be ok in time .. i just really wanted to go :-(
every thing sucks.
Didnt sleep well at all, my throat is v. v. swollen, i cant swollow very well. Kept having funny turns too .. i think that was just the sedation wearing off and my muscles starting to work again. I dont know.
Im starting to feel rather rough now .. i could eat last night and i cant today.
My fingers are blue its so cold ... my father is to tight to leave the heating on it seems.
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