2002-11-20 - 2:29 a.m.
what a day!
Its been one of them days today! My head ache was so bad this morning i could hardly get my head off the pillow ... i hate it when its like that, but the pain killers didnt work either :-( Bad sign really, considering they are morphine!! lol .. hehe .. hey ho, you just live dont you!
Social worker came at 2pm to talk about my care plan. Im starting to get a bit stressed now as im totally packed (bar electrical stuff) and they are still fanny farting about with the care plan! The social worker want me to have about 20 hours and bridgets want me to have 35!! To be honest i feel a bit silly cos thats a lot of care .. things like 2 hours a day for help with toileting .. well unless im stuck in bed i dont really need that. But we shall see .. hummmm
Seeing her really took it out of me and my back starting to kill :@ took some more pain killers but it didnt do much bloody good! Any way, i had to go and order a bed .. as you do! With Fran, shouldnt have been out but it needed to be done.
With in about 5 mins of seeing her we had fallen out and she was crying .. i didnt want to get my self in to a state cos i was in so much pain i knew if i started i would never stop. So i just got mad ... didnt say a word, but was boiling up. Ordered the bed and took her home .. didnt exactly improve from there!! lol .. any way, i honestly thought it was the end this time .. and after missing about 4000 calls i called her back. We are sorted for the moment but this is our last chance .. im too ill to keep going though all the emotion this brings up. Not fair on either of us any way, to be constently arguing and never talking about stuff properly.
So apart from that i did a bit of work on my diary tonight but thats all i could cope with. Blah!!
Night night xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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